Good Things Fall Apart So That Better Things Can Fall Together*

Everyone meet my baby brother Ezias=) Yes, I know he is the cutest! lol This kid, I swear is too smart for his age.

Recently, I have been just struggling. I have been letting school, work and personal things take the best of me. Stress is soooo not the drama. lol

I thought a lot about how the choices I was making, really was reflecting my family and how no matter what my goal in the end was making them proud and making sure that I bring pride and glory to my grandparents, parents and family.

I knew I needed to represent my family better then before, because Satan was working very hard on me.
That stressed me out even more.  Because of that, I found no motivation to do anything. Homework was a bore, class was even a bigger bore. Nothing gave me much hope.

I guess you could say that I was at the point of giving up.

One day, I ended up dozing off to sleep. I dreamth of this little boy. This 8 year old, whos long dark hair was braided down his back.

He was calling out for me and I was annoyed, just like in real life.

"What do you want Ezias?" I said.

He ran up to me and his brown eyes met mines.

"I wanted to ask you how the weather was?"- he exclaimed.

I thought to myself: what the heck is this kid talking about??
So I replied "Baby, I am not in the mood. Why are you asking me how the weather is, if you want to find out go outside."

He smiled his famous asian eyed smile and said "okay Eesha, I love you! But think about it."

Before I knew it, I was awake. I looked out my sliding door of my apartment, and the Utah skies flashed with lightning, and roared with thunder.

yes, just like the movies...just not as dramatic and scary. lol

I thought back to my dream, and tried analyzing what it could mean.

I sat quietly, and just took time to really think. I dont know how long it was before I began reminiscing about a night back home in Hawaii.

It was storming too, and I pretended to be scared just to get my baby brother to hold me. As lightning struck, I hugged Ezias tighter. He brushed his tiny fingers through my hair and kissed my forehead. He then looked at me and whispered,

 "Eesha, you dont have to be scared. You see the lightning? Yeah thats Jesus taking pictures of us."

Then he looked up to the sky and smiled, leaving me crying in his arms without him knowing.

What a smart little kid right? When I thought about this, it made me think that nothing is really as bad as I make it out to be. Heavenly Father never wants bad things to happen to us. And if bad things do come across, which they will...it is only part of His plan for us.

God doesn't give us the people we want, he gives us the people we need. To love us, hurt us and shape us into the people we need to become. Same goes with trials.

I know for a fact that good things fall apart so that better things can fall together.
I love this little kid, who doesnt even know how much of an affect he has on my life<3

From now on, when things get tough, I'll always remember to check the weather. And once I think, theres no one there, I'll always remember the little boy who looks up to me as a hero and thinks the world of me<3 The little boy who will NEVER give up on me, even when I feel like giving up on myself<3 I love you Ezias!